I know the truth. I met Jesus. He came into my life and he transformed me, and he whispers in my ear. He speaks to me, rains on me, and blows wind in my face. I have felt the love of God the Father stronger than any love I have ever felt for my two precious babies. And I love them with everything in me. I would die for them in a second. I would let my life be mutilated so that they could live. So that they could be spared. And I know Gods love more than I know that truth. Because I asked for it. I said, I will step out on a tiny shred of faith if you could just give me a sign. And he did. Small ones. Ones that I had to chase, and hold onto. Signs that I had to pursue. And then the signs got bigger. They got clearer, sometimes it feels like connecting the dots to create that whole picture. And I won't know the whole picture. Not in this lifetime. But if I keep chasing I'll know enough to get through this day, and the next day, and the one after that if I am lucky enough to have it.
But here is what I know today. I know that I want my life to be a testament of the truth that I know. And that isn't happening if I am not proclaiming it out loud.
Here comes the scary part. I DON'T WANT ANYONE IN MY LIFE TO FEEL LIKE I AM JUDGING THEM. That is the hardest thing for me. And I don't judge them. I don't. I mean, don't get me wrong…my human nature is nasty and I know that I HAVE JUDGED people. And I am sorry. And I know that I will do it again. And I will be sorry again. But I am sick of not proclaiming the truth, because I don't want to hurt someones feelings. I will proclaim the truth because I want the best for them. And I will not judge them, but I will love them.
The truth is Jesus. He has a better way than you could ever know (a way he wants to show you, and give you on this earth). A peace that passes all understanding. And to not have him, is death.
I love this message by Mark Driscoll. It is TRUE. It is so refreshing to finally hear it. To hear it not stepped around, and not screamed out with a harsh tone of judgment. To just hear the truth. No double talking, or misconstruing.
God, you know my heart, you know who I wrote down. Please don't pass them by.